Being a better mom

This piggy backs to “Enjoying Life.” I find myself pulled in many directions, and often by my own will or mind. Each time I do, I notice things are tense with India. One of the major reasons I moved to Hawaii was to enjoy nature and focused time with India. When I start working in my on-line store or on face book or doing some research for a new lotion or potion, I find myself being impatient and ineffective with India. She wants some time from me and I just want her to play by herself. And she does, she plays really well by herself. The timing of all of this just isn’t always perfect, or is it? I don’t feel I’m being a good mom as I’m reading a post from FB or a friend’s blog and India wants something from me and I put her off or am impatient. I feel that I should always speak gently to her and never feel frustrated or pulled. If I didn’t have a computer, would be having this battle? I hear my perfectionism creeping in here. Ugh! One of my friends is the MOST free-flowing person I’ve ever met. She blows w/ the breeze and thinks almost all of it is just wonderful. She’s not demanding or difficult at all (except when the breeze blows her by 1 ½ late…). She seems very present and content. She definitely is a model for me. She’s present with her children and I think that’s where I’m annoyed with myself, when I’m not present with India. I can tend to snap, and that’s just ugly. Yes, I know, I’m human, and I’d like to be a kinder human. I wonder/wish I would/could save my computer time for naptime. I love my morning Facebook and tea… Hmmm, how do you feel about this topic and how do you deal with it in your life?